sudden urge

this sudden urge is taking my mind elsewhere

i can't take it.

bring me to a remote place

a place with many gorgeous stars

a place where i can lie comfortably

a place where i don't have to control my tears

a place where i can forget everything

a place where i can behave like a kid

and look at the stars......

i'm just...

yay!

i've elated, overjoy and whatsoever!!!

i just made ruhuan's birthday wish came true

whoots!!!! and she loves me truck loads now:D

i simply love this feeling. making someone so happy is just so facinating!

oh.... i love this man.

butbutbut, i somehow hurt my butt this afternoon.

somewhere at the fleshy area?? or is it the muscle?

sad for me, i can't make big movements. can't even walk properly.

hope it'll be alright by tomorrow morning so i can go for training.

P.S hope you really love your birthday present from me, ruhuan(:

hopeless

i'm absolutely mad at myself!

shit you jessica for being so dumb.

you got to admit that you've got no brains and common sense.

YOU FLUNK YOUR GEOGRAPHY TEST YA!

16/40

nice one, you're first test fail since you enter ngee ann

OH MY GOSH!!!

i'm so screwed up and i promise to strive for the best for the next test.

aim for A1 A1 A1!!

teehee~

i wish

somehow, i miss taking bus with him.(although i don't know him)

seriously, this is the first time i've ever felt this way.

how i wish to have my busride with you everyday...

forgive me

apparently, i'm really feeling horrible.

there's no way i can describe it.

i'm such a *****

heard some stuff.

and after self-reflecting a while ago, i've decided.

i'm not gonna talk to any guy for a week.

so, please forgive me if i ignore you alright? big hug for you if you understand

i made this punishment for myself and i'm so gonna persevere.

and because of this, i guess i have to buy ruhuan a late present. hope she don't get upset.

this week will be tough man!

my results are unexpected, i mean really really unexpected.

eng-32/60

math-29/40

sci-29/40

chi-64/70

(super unexpected cos the paper was difficult okay)

lit-33/50

history-81/100(another ridiculous one)

DnT-32.5/40

look at them! they are total nuisance. i almost fail english alright, what a horrible thing

but i'm not totally upset with my results cos i can't expect much due to competitions going on

and for now, i'm gonna learn to maintain a balance diet

i've been eating like no tomorrow and now i'm gonna change

BE HEALTHY AND FIT with a good figure(:

just look at jessica alba and then look at me, is just like looking at a pear and an orange

okay, i know this is a weird example. and back to the balance diet.

i must learn to control whatever i eat, at the same time save ka-cheng($$)

i've been eating even if i'm not hungry just because the food is nice and so tempting.

and from today onwards, i'm going gym every friday!!

went gym today and felt as if i lost 5 kg but instead, only 100g

how annoying. and i really wanna go sentosa tomorrow!!

so please! anyone free, just say. i'm sure we'll enjoy the day(:

abnormal

i realise one big fact about myself

well, they say i'm abnormal. but i think it's call UNIQUE!

honestly, i'm not sad or anything, but i somehow agree with them. eg. priscilla, sheryl

i do things that you can't expect, and laugh like you won't wanna befriend me after you hear

i'm such a UNIQUE person! well god made me like that and i totally appreciate it(:

TRAINING WAS TOUGH!

but after training, i went home with sheryl, which was super cool

she always end up buying fruits. apples and cherry tomatoes today.

tomato is disgusting, i had a great time swallowing it alright!

anyway, the funny part was when this aunty started interupting our conversation

"are you two sisters?"

stupid okay! no manners, people talking how can you interupt!!

and we really had serious talk. stupid extra aunty:(

but now, i can't really remember what she told me, only some

sometimes i just hate short term memory...