it's my life

sheryl, priscilla and i have decided to watch the It's My Life theatre play

and i truely want you guys to tag along.

i think it'll be fun? great? yes no?

buying tickets next tuesday from teacher

kinda looking forward to the play(:

thanks guys for your concern

problems come one after another.

dejected.

mr teo announced the 12 players going for hongkong trip today

sadly, i'm not one of them

actually i'm glad that he placed my name in the list

somehow makes me think that i have the ability

however, not going for yesterday's training cost me to lose this chance

this is my first absence ever since i joined this training

should i blame myself for deciding to not attend training yesterday

or blame him for judging oneself too quickly

honestly, it's not really fair to me:(

just because i was too tired to attend training yesterday,

he tells me so much about commitment.

alright, it isn't entirely his fault, but still part of it

now, i can picture my teamates enjoying themselves in disneyland

while i'm stuck at home, sucking my toes

probably i should come up with a plan to piss him off

what about......

train super hard and make him regret for taking my name off the list

HAHAAHA!

i'm such a genius!

GO PEH!

caught High school Musical 3 on friday,

pretty awesome(:

hectic

it's been a hectic week.

miss training today cus i reached home super early today

2am ++ and slept pretty late

well, the trip suck. becus they were getting on my nerves

doing things like they have the whole time in the world

which made me wanna thank jillian for lending me her book

i absolutely did not enjoy this trip and never will i spend my time there again

there's been many things in my mind

sadly, none of them are good.

for example, my relationship with my sis

my friends,

my outcome of subject combination results,

my cca and so many other stuff

sometimes i wonder if i had done something wrong

which is why i'm suffering now

i hope this is depression so my rents will stop nagging

on stuffs like bills, education and other notsoimportant shit

i need someone to hear me rant

and clearly someone who doesn't judge

i can't believe that after all these, i'm still not getting any better.

sigh......

i want a sister who loves me

talks to me, cares for me

not one who dislikes me, ignores me

i've tried. really. all i can do to make her realise me

but i'm still not getting any

and my dad seems to be aggravating matters. he's such a relationship spoiler

i really envious those with bestest siblings

i also want friends who appreciate me

and i'll feel comfortable with

i want everything to be great! just like everyone!

:(

last day of school. for the first time i'm missing my classmates.i wanna be in the same class as some of them. but most probably can't.i'm so lazy. off tmr and i haven't pack my bag. i don't know what to wear there.

sometimes i don't know how to tolerate you.i can't possibly do what you like most of the time.it's annoying when i have to go by youand cannot make you upset. i simply love the way i am.i've been bending over backwards to think about your feelings.i'm afraid one day i might just scream out.i hope you will learn one day.

frustrated

i'm rather annoyed now

not with my results, but with my future

i'm gonna get double science (phy&chem), a math, POA, ss+EG

i hope i can get it

and i'm worrying about my future classmates

i wish they are people i'll love

means they have to be nice

don't give me nightmares anymore

i've had enough and sick of it

so please, sweet sweet dreams pretty please??

warp

suddenly, i would say, i feel so empty, so incomplete.

which leaves me thinking about what's wrong

and coming to a conclusion that everyone has changed

obviously, i don't like it.

i want and wish and would do whatever it takes

to change this dead me into a complete me

impossible, but surely, there's something i can do to improve it

someone please tell me what i can do, or should do

i'm gonna break down someday soon

probably, i need new friends

new habits

new environment

new everything

everything a yearn for

i see people, who possesses it, not treasuring it

i hope during this long holiday

things i desire will come looking for me

and i'll won't have to force a smile anymore

becus it comes out automatically

please, i really wish to enjoy secondary school life

but i can't force myself anymore...

discovery centre

sore throat + muscle ache

what's worse than this?

ordo you call it an after examination pressent?

argh... feel like a complain queen:(

BTW, went to singapore discovery centre today.

retarded

ugly
dim-witted
unglam

NEWater
visited NEWater yesterday and found this attractive dustbin.
and went to our new school hall, which stinks pretty much
but the classroom was worse. AH my lungs!
i'm sure it deteriorate my throat condition.
did i mention i've having sore throat now.
really annoying. it hurts when i yawn
super painful when i burp and worst of all
when i swallow saliva.
however, i'm pleased to finally get my phone back.
actually mr ong (om) is a nice guy.
unlike the other ong:(

hot

Adam Gregory

Chace Crawford

i've been watching a couple of dramas lately and it's awesome.

other than GG, 90210 is great. so is One Tree Hill(:

and tell me adam gregory has a gorgeous smile
also tell me how hot or cute or handsome or whatever chace crawford is.

becus they really are!!!

7 poses

made up stupid rules when playing bball

and stupid punishment.

to do 7 unglam poses for all the shots that i missed.

stupid indeed.

math

i never knew math can be so frightening
it's the first time i've seen such horrifying math paper

it totally suck! 15 marks gone.

i totally screwed this EOY and i'm so not gonna let this end

i can't just let my 1000 bucks fly away!!!

(not from my rents, they aren't so nice to give me cash)

i wish miracles do happen

&*^#@*&#!)*, this is how i feel

no point crying over spilled milk.

i shall TRY to forget about it and continue life,

until the day my mom sees my paper and i have to dial 995

anyway, spotted this hot car on the way back from gym

and decided to snap it. haha!

passers-by were looking at us like some idiot.

finally

after many sleepless nights and bad appetite,

i'm finally free from those killers!!!

maths tmr but it isn't one of those killers

so pleased that i don't have to read those textbook till next year begins(:

i'm really gay (the happy meaning) like !^#^%*@#

not until the results are back.

and i'm gonna spend the rest of my days doing crazy insane stuff

and i truely think i have a problem.

i came to this conclusion after today's paper

there was this question error and a teacher came in to inform us.

stupidly, i was blind and deaf enough to not notice her.

furthermore, i was sitting at the second row.

and i only notice this question error

when the teacher came to collect my paper

as i looked at the board. too late.

argh!!! i'm so gonna (!%$#

watching 90210 now and it's taking forever to load.

can't find GG, or maybe it isn't out yet

and A is freaking lame.

he prank called me

and laughed so dottyly. crazy as a loon!

cold shower

despite the insane hot weather, i'm freezing right now

"accidentally" took a cold shower cus i forgot to on the heater

and no one's home and i can't run out of the toilet, naked

science and history are killers

i just went to check on how much i have to study

and i'm gonna shit in my pants on wed and thur

just imagine someone ask you to memorise the oxford dictionary

in order to save your mum

i know it's a weird example, but it's exactly how i feel

i'm mentally disfunction now!!!!

i can't wait for the exams to be over

can't wait to get my P

can't wait to go out again

can't wait to meet my pri friend

can't wait to get busy

can't wait to....

there's so many thing i can't wait to do

except for getting my results back:(

may the lord bless me

national library

to the national library we went!

not very productive though.

i did try my best to study science but nothing went into my head

and i fought my heavy eyelids throughout the noon

argh...

i'm always tired, am i old? i don't want!!!

and i realise the library has many ah pek

all reading newspaper.

the funny thing is, this particular ah pek beside me took more than 2 hours

to read his paper. and he didn't change the newspaper

or was he actually sleeping with his eyes open (like fish)

i don't know! it's just funny how interesting these ah pek can be

HAHAHA!

and you realise i having been posting photos

i want my phone!!! which is like, 2 more weeks!!!