you don't know

i clearly have no idea how i have been surviving this years
i was just looking back at those old times photos and autographs of my pri school mates
recalling those days...
truely miss them
those fun times
mischievous, doltish, crazy moments
even the sickest moments
ngee ann is not even 1% of PL
i'm like..
a bed without bedsheet
i bet you don't get it, neither do i
what about...
a MP3 player without battery (handphone or whatever electronic device you name it)
IT'S JUST NO LIFE!
i bet i'm gonna regret wasting this period of time when i'm older
i'm sick of posting how bored my life is
as you can see the past few posts and even long time ago ones
it's all talking about the same thing
BUT I JUST SIMPLY CAN'T FIND ANY FUN!
alright, i guess i gotta accept fate and stop complaining.
no more hopes...

okay, again, my parents are enjoying themselves and will be back on friday
so i'm alone at home till friday
no longer afraid of dark nights
not to mention, i love being alone at times
you get to think a lot or you know, just sing out loud or do whatever stupid things you plan

my confidence seems to be diminishing....

restless

over with the hectic week but back to the mundane school days
alarm at 0615- snooze 5 min- ganchiong spider- pray not to be late- most days lucky- assembly- ask for food in class- sadly no one entertains me- try to act awake- teacher forever sitting beside me- recess- cut queue- gobble gobble- back to class- walk to lab alone- play with hair- play with pencil case- dream of future husband and kids and blah blah blah- stare at shoelace- fight eyelids- eyes fixed on watch- school ends- eat- home sweet home

now you understand the definition of mundane.
i bet, like seriously 100bucks, no one wants to be me
AH!!! i want some life man.
miss those fun in primary school
i think i'm the only teenage girl who misses primary school
everybody of my age are spending everyday differently
live life to the fullest, you may say
how, you tell me
one sec ago, i was thinking of randomly go town alone
befriend a loner and god knows, we might click!
dream on. exam's coming
i don't see anything exciting after exams
so i'm not looking forward to anything

well, only one. the england trip!
yes! i got it, but i don't know who in my school is going.
better not be too excited:(
and 17AGAIN is.......
there's zac efron and adam gregory!
still, go catch it, you'll for in love with that ohsohot zac
seriously, he's WOAH
get what i mean.

anyway, anybody who wish to entertain me like out after school everyday, don't be shy
oh gosh, i miss those everyday out after school days.
CIAO.

Island Sibu

this trip isn't as good as i expected cus i never expect my 'resort' to be so 'scary'.

i think it's worst then my ah mah's kampong.

the toilet is so horrible that i can't find any word to describe it.

but not the forget, the dive was rather fun and catching 'nemo' is more than fun(:

i think the best part was the second day where we trek to the other end of the island which was WOW.

that place is extraordinary clean and almost exquisite.

did i mention there was no asian at all. only eurasian. shiokadoo!

many times, i wanted to just sleep on the beach for that night but sadly, no i can't

now, i so wanna go perhentian after hearing that there is 100times nicer than sibu, ohmygosh!

PICTURES!

lonely, forlorn

have you ever been alone at home
where your rents are out of town
and you'll have to clear the bin
wash clothes, hand them out the window
settle your own meals
make sure the windows are close before going off
and every min, you'll look around, afraid that a roach decides to crawl out and give you a shock of your life
well, this is what i'm feeling presently
good thing is, this isn't permanent (CHOY)

i have a lot of things to do, i know that
but my mind is blank now
i'm leaving on friday, but a part of me ain't excited
in fact, you call it stress, i guess
i realise i get stress over everything, HA
anyway, i have to stress the point that
right after i return to singapore, i have 4 tests waiting for me
geog, chem, a math and phy
as a matter of fact, i fear failing any small tests (except chi)
because you'll have to do exceptionally well for the next
and usually, papers get tougher each time
you see, i'm suppose to enjoy this trip
but instead, i have to bring my geog notes to study in the night
positive positive positive!
i should start packing now


au revoir~

April's fool!

have you been fooled today or the other way round?
surprisingly, i didn't get fooled but i fooled my mum!

me: mummy! government called just now telling me that our unit won 1000cash!
ma ma: really? then what else did they say? like how to redeem?
me: (not prepared) er.. go to the nearest whatever to and show your ic
mama: serious ah? i told you got chance!
me: they said something else damn important
mama: what?
me: april fool!!!!!!

HAHAHAAAAAAAAA. she's so naive. but she insist that she knew i was lying already.
anyway, i lost 5kg of sadness tonight!
thanks R for forgiveness(:
but i have another 5kg.
oh, and now i sososo very very very need need need $$$$
went to ma dive shop to get rash guard (supposedly)
ended up getting snokel due to short of cash
sometimes i think i act without thinking
totally useless:(
nevermind, you're forgiven.
ISLAND SIBU HERE I COME! with my geog textbook:(