crazy lady here

what's gotten into me lately?
i think i'm suffering from severe depression
SERIOUSLY, I NEED HELP
all of a sudden, i'm in a life twister
telling myself i'm gonna get through this
and i really hope i will
it's not just one, it's a few big ones
i have never met so many critical problems in ma life
no one is to blame but me
good thing is, i can learn from these
be a better person

apart from having academic challenges
i'm giving problems to everyone
such as blaming s for something that's totally my mistake.
SORRY S(:
i ask for everybody's forgiveness please
i admit i'm not a nice person at times
also, financial problem gives headache.
my parents ain't as nice as parents nowadays
so i have to pay for EVERYTHING.
shit, i'm like having attitude problem
i need anger management.
omg, sounds pretty much like symptoms of depression, yes?
haha. so due to these problems, i finally breakdown (a while ago)
after everything came out from ma eyes
like those evil liquid with poison and stuff
woah, i figure everything out i tell you.
i am gonna clear everything up one by one.
first of all, i'll settle the people that i offended.
hope they will bury the hatchet, no?
don't give up jessica!

i needa screwdriver to unscrew me. SCREWED!

CIP for me today at geylang senior citizen day care.

thanks to celestine, i survived the 2-3 hours.

celestine, my one year ago teammate.

i never knew she's such a nice girl

so sweeeeet and nice(:

anyway, the elderly at the day care ain't as friendly to each other as i thought.

they seem to not like that place alot! omg

ok, i'm in a mess now. so stressed up i tell you.

my diving confirm 10-12 april.

guess what?

13th april- geog test

14th- chem test

WTHWTHWTHWTHWTH!!!!!

everytime i have a dive plan, something bad will crop up.

guess i'll just have to bring my geog book along:(

i'm so so so sorry.

i apologise sincerely.

i really didn't mean to bully you?

i haven't realise what i had done

tell me what i can do to turn things back to normal?

happy birthday celestine!

celestine is so prettay(:
wish she stays that way always(:

town with YY to get her bag.
but mission failed cus both of us were super indecisive
and she decided to spend her cah-ching on clothes instead.

Also, i realise i'm such a bitch.
i'm an evil girl
father, i pray for your forgiveness
i told myself the last thing i want is to speak ill of others
but i could take it no more
and start ranting to YY
although she tried convincing me that i was just stating facts, not talking bad
i still feel 483975909635423 horrible
see! self discipline please jessica!!!!

why have ( ) become so unlovable
or maybe it's just me being sensitive?
hope i'll be more understanding and accept everybody the way they are(:
well, i still feel damn horrible...............

return to innocence

somehow i think this song is cute and relaxing. so relaxing that my skin is sagging.

hahaha, no funny, i know.

sony ericson idou

HOT HOT HOT! THIS PHONE IS DAMN SEXY, I SO WANNA GET IT. PLEASE DROP FROM SKY!!!!!!!

yay, there's americans' nexxt top model in a while(:

race to witch mountain

race to witch mountain is a movie that keeps your eyes glued to the screen and makes you anxious as if you're on mission. it has funny scenes too! i sound like i'm advertising the movie, HAHA!

flea fly flo fun!

(tam, here's the pic you want)

well, bought lots of stuff.
happy happy(:
but lesser money money:(
new friends, hannah and nicole.
nicole is really nice and pretty.
hannah is pretty too!
hahahaaaa.
happy today~

fake people

i've learnt a lot lately.
lots of thinking, yeah..
human changes over time
some changes are great
while some are not, obviously.
and sadly, i have to meet people with the latter
how to deal with that? i haven't think of a solution, yet.
of course, the worst is to speak ill of them
gladly, mistakes allowed me to gain experiences and learn from it.
no one is perfect, i know.

in conclusion, some people are just different from what you see them as.

rage

have you ever been so insanely mad at yourself that you wanna just throw roaches at yourself, or take a knife and cut through your heart!?
you'll never know what's frustration until you feel what i'm feeling now.
ok, first, today was damn boring. 15 hours folding of boxes, how much fun can you get?
so i spent my time taking pictures with new classmate.
seriously, there's many many many pictures.
but my itchy fingers, or should i say irritating fingers, went to check out what's memory format and accidentally deleted EVERYTHING in the memory card!
*#(_%&#*^)!%^#!_%*&#!)%&*#*%#&%)(!&#%^)!#
is this what you called, curiosity kills the cat?
OMG! I CAN REALLY POKE MYSELF TO DEATH.
so frustrated and MY HEADSTRONG TEARS ROLLED DOWN.
and to aggravate matters, my mum keeps demoralising me in the car
and many many important things suddenly appear out of the blue.
totally pissed.....

aiyayah, it's taking forever to upload everything:(

the rest are (here) & (here)

chillax

there's so many stars today. can't even remember when was the last time i saw the sky so beautiful.
out with tam, sajane and jing. paranakan musuem is rather cool. but today really isn't my day.
1st. the do not have to pay for entrance fees cus their school are members (why ngee ann so lousy!)
2nd. i keep losing in guess the no. and ended up eating almost everything of the leftover, damn horrible
3rd. tam poured sweetener in my water right infront of me and i was blind enough to drink it the next min.
4th. my shoes kept dropping:(
it's really damn unlucky to be unlucky!
but, i still enjoy myself from all the crap and rubbish, HA!
omg, there's 100 pictures, should i upload?
tomorrow la tomorrow(:

not emo, just mature

this world is huge, and i'm too small to be compared
i'm no queen, nor princess
i gain no power, therefore should be quiet.
a part of me is introvert, hidden
i hate, but i love
i just can't bring myself to hate me
how now father? please help me, guide me through this exciting yet difficult path
i'm trap in this rubber band, seems breakable but not at all
2 years, and i haven't move on.
self denial, no. reflect, but no action taken.
why am i such loser, why?

bowl head

SHIT! i chopped off almost half my length of hair.
and now it's a one length thing.
PLEASE DO NOT LAUGH AT ME, THANKS VELI MUCH(:
honestly, i like this new haircut, but i'm super sure many is gonna comment about it. DAMN
did i mention i look like a 3 year old girl who put a bowl over her head and start shaving her hair.
but, it's not as horrible as you think lah.
sooner, it's gonna grow longer and i won't have to look so idiotic!
HEEHEE~

one more thing, although my diving trip next week is cancelled
i reckon the good friday trip is confirmed! WOOHOO
SOOOOOOOO EXCITED(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

cousins love

caught PUSH today.
honestly, i think it's a good movie.
half of the time i was covering my eyes (although it's not horror)
also, i realise tasha has parents whom everyone would love to have!
she's practically a not spoiled princess OMG!

this is ultra hilarious!

addicted

recently, i love to video(:

dare

it flows

a dog doesn't care a bout big houses, cool cars, wealth
it doesn't care if you're smart, stupid, rich, poor
just give your heart and he'll give his

kinda draggy at the beginning but ultra touching at the end. omg, i cried like seriously, cry.
marley and me, love your pets please(:
HURRAY! exam's finally over and i can stop dropping hair. but when the results are back, i'll start dropping again. damn. sadly, there's stupid chinese compo tomorrow and bloody weird chinese test the following day. POA's on friday. faint faint:(