not emo, just mature

this world is huge, and i'm too small to be compared
i'm no queen, nor princess
i gain no power, therefore should be quiet.
a part of me is introvert, hidden
i hate, but i love
i just can't bring myself to hate me
how now father? please help me, guide me through this exciting yet difficult path
i'm trap in this rubber band, seems breakable but not at all
2 years, and i haven't move on.
self denial, no. reflect, but no action taken.
why am i such loser, why?